I was wrestling with this same feeling this morning:
I got an A on one mid-term, a B+ on another, a B on the third. Apparently I am still a functional machine. I must not be as fried as I’ve believed. I wonder how there is such a gulf between my real life and the one in my head. I must be throughly delusional. I wonder how much of my supposed decline over the past four years has been imaginary.
http://gonnasingthedoomsong.blogspot.com/2008/04/brain-cells-flicker-on.html
As I watch the news and see world events being played out before my eyes, you know the whole new world order all that bohemian grove , bilderberg, bullshit, all the crap you “sane” folks are to busy to notice.
Being in the process of trying to get my disability back, I live with the fear of knowing that if or when that ever happens, I will be one of the first to be rounded up and sent to the camps:
see Civilian Inmate Labor Program:
Watching as the anti-christ (anti-saviour, one who professes to be a saviour), is on the scene as the world bows and worships at his feet.
I’m Asking you to believe” http://www.barackobama.com/index.php
I believe Mr. Obama, lawdy, lawdy, do I believe:
Assuring the Rights Affirmed in Olmstead v. L.C.
Barack Obama believes we still have considerable progress to make in ensuring that the rights affirmed to Americans with disabilities in the Olmstead v. L.C. decision, which required states to place people with mental disabilities in community settings rather than in institutions when treatment professionals determine that community placement is appropriate. In addition to supporting the Community Choice Act of 2007 and the CLASS Act of 2007, Obama believes that we should further incentivize states to provide Americans with disabilities the ability to choose the most appropriate care for their individual needs. Obama believes the federal government should help states increase the supply of high-quality community-based settings for individuals with disabilities by providing additional grants for new communities and community expansions. And he believes the federal government needs to be diligent about making sure the states enforce the rights affirmed by the Olmstead decision. http://www.barackobama.com/pdf/DisabilityPlanFactSheet.pdf
Pardon my confusion, however the term”community-based settings ” sounds so much like the (civillian inmate) work camps of old the germany, you remember the other “homeland” that they needed “Gestapo” (translated means homeland security’s or security of the father land) for.
Lawdy, lawdy I do believe.
I wonder just what to tell the quacks, how do I say i feel like everyone has always lied to me, when its so blatantly obvious that “they” always have. How do I say i feel like the world is laughing at me when they obviously are at “us” (or the US). I struggle with the timing of my original “diagnosis”, a time in the not so distant past most would prefer to forget, a special time. The eighties.
Anyone still remember it, you know reagan-onimics, or the “trickle down economy”, strange how most from the same era feel as if they got pissed on, and it wasn’t a trickle at all. Really beginning to understand now that it was no more than another government stimulus package. You know take those from the public that could see what was going on, label them crazy and pay them to stay that way. I remember clearly, all one need say was “big brother”, time out, here’s your check.
Today they seem more interested in weather or not we “crazies” can hear the programming being beamed straight into our brains with the “god box”, seen three quacks now, first question, do you ever think the tv is talking to you?
Of course in the eighties we didn’t have high def so it wasn’t one of the things to look out for in a psycho. 
Nor did we have real invisibility cloaking technology then as now (google), so they never asked if you ever felt as if someone was touching you. Yes a different time for sure.
Then they just wanted “us” out of the way as to further their cause. They have won now so its more like a fuhrer bush so clearly demonstrates to the left.
Strange , however true as I awake to the realities around me,I never have been crazy, I have wasted a life, that by some small twist of fate might of made a difference for those I know, the heirs I will be leaving bound into slavery to these mad men, thats if a one of them survive the coming onslaught.
Yes folks let me be the first to profess I need a new drug, however it wont be abilify or any of the other psychotropics or hypnotics they are so ready to have you all on as you stare blindly at your “god boxes”
Fuck you Nazi quacks, and your mind crippling drugs! anyone reading this does know where the whole psychology shit came from don’t you? This is the 5th Reich as denoted by all the clearly obvious five pointed stars around you. Do you really believe a five pointed star is the lowest common denominator, from flags, to walmart (fall-a-part) to banks, businesses, even down to automotive wheels?
sure youre right, I am just crazy. Hush now back to sleep it was all a bad dream.
Iam sure I will feel fine on abilify, with my skin crawling, burning, and itching. Now if someone would just be so kind as to make a donation maybe I would go get some. Remember I have no income, no medical. Thanks again you fugging nazies!!!